Life Learner

Started from this semester I tried to do the self check and try my best to improve myself to be a better person. It is not easy because I need to keep the diary and I rarely finished the diary. Hahaha. Sometimes I skipped 2-3 days and write that later 😱

Because of that, I make a weekly self check. That might be easier to me to do that.

This week I really want to share about this and it's really change the way I think about my past years in China.

Before 25 I always think about how to impressed people, how to be perfect, how to get a really good review and being pretty. But, after I went through all of the process I choose to be more focused about my happiness without decreased my value of life. I am still perfectionist and a bit arrogant and that might be too hard for me to eliminate that one. Basically, I am an ESFP or ESTP with DI personality. So, that might be a bit complicated with my own way of living. Hahaha.

But, I know what I want to do and what I need to do while talking about my right and my duty I think sometime my ego still too high to do my duty as a hardworking student and always asking for my right. Hahaha. But, I learn a lot how to make a decisions and I did that several times here. That was a bit hard when I did that for the first time, but after that I think that easier to me to denied all of the negative thinking and just doing what I want to do.

Actually my mom said I always did that before but even when my mom said that I think I am not. Hahaha. So I don't know what my mom think about me right now. Hahaha.

I put myself as the priority,
But I also need to do a lot of things to graduate. I really want to graduate but my physics and mental reject that. Hahaha. I said that I am okay but my body just rejected that and I think I went to hospital almost once a month now. Hahaha.

I really don't know why because I think I am okay, yeah I found that I always delayed my work and I am take a lot of things not seriously. But, I am just don't want to over doing myself to do something that only make me stress. Hahaha. I am stress, of course. The pressure is still a lot and the work also has a lot of problem 😱😱😱

But, that is Life. And as this title I started to be a life learner now. Because, I cannot expected much from someone and I also don't want to force myself to do that. 😂

Thanks to all of the memories and experiences. I learned a lot from all of those moments