FAITH & RELATIONSHIP WITH GOD

It's been a while after I wrote about religion. 

I already joined a class for being a servant and being the seeker of God in my church.

I think that I already know everything, because I was doing that things before.

I left my church activities and I think that I am good enough now.

I never think something that I though before, my focus for my weekly routine to church is the only GOD, I didn't want to become the one who serve, I am enough now.

But, I tried to heard my calling, I tried to joined this class, I need to spare my weekend to joined this class every week, during eid mubarak holiday we also need to come and take a class :(

I know that when I look to someone I might be disappointed again, but this class make me know that everywhere that I go HUMAN is always a HUMAN, they can't become someone who 100% good enough to become the angle church people, the only think about served GOD is about our heart and our relationship with GOD.

So, I'll start my stories about Faith & Relationship with GOD.

FAITH ? what is FAITH ? why we need a FAITH ? I asked that for a several times in my life, why I need to have a faith when I can't trust anyone. FAITH in GOD when I saw that my life is in the bottom of the curve, when I think that time would be my BEST time in my life, I did everything for GOD, why GOD did that for me ? I have a FAITH that GOD will help me soon, but this time GOD really takes HIS times too long, I waited for almost 3-4 years to know that everything that God did in my life is for the best for me, and when I have my FAITH I must to keep praying not denied my calling. I left everything, I know that I still have a faith, and in BIBLE on Matthew 17:20 said that He replied, "Because you have so little faith. Truly I tell you, if you have faith as small as a mustard seed, you can say to this mountain, 'Move from here to there,' and it will move. Nothing will be impossible for you." that really happen for me. GOD provide everything for me, during my university life, my internship, and my work now.

I think FAITH also have a really tight connection with your relationship with GOD, 

I also don't have that really intimacy relationship with GOD for sure, I just came to the church every week and that only my routine schedule because my parent asked me to do that. I never pray for a good things, I only pray when I need to eat, I need to sleep and to help to wake up in the morning. But, with that little prayer He heard me, yeah, HE REALLY HEARD ME. sometimes, I felt like He left me, I can't find my way, what I need to do, what I can do as I am. But, He always sent someone that I never think will let me know that, I think God wants to make me BACK to my start point this time. 

In the beginning of 2016, 

I said to myself that I'll be back to the CHURCH, but everything really hard to me,

I left everything before me and I place my trust in GOD, 

When I start to think that I'll do that, HE HEARD ME again, and I FAIL again,

I am too busy to think about me and my life.

I tried to do everything that I never did before, I left my PROMISE behind.

So, when I saw that this class will be held on Sunday, I force myself to join,

I went to that place ALONE, I didn't know anyone.

But, I have a better community, I have a chance to know more about GOD,

I have a chance to spent my time more to studied about LIFE and how GOD makes my life completed. 

This kind of RELATIONSHIP is not really like the one who deserved their life to church.

But, I know that when I tried to built this GOOD RELATIONSHIP with GOD, I will have a FAITH that bigger than before and I trust that HE will PROVIDE everything, He was there on every path on my life journey. I tried to asked GOD everything that I need to do, what kind of behavior that I need to take to face my problem and how can I become someone that will be the light and become someone who will be like HIM. 

I know that I am not perfect, but I know that GOD give me an ANSWER when I have a little FAITH to tried my best :D