I am PROUD being ME

This week I won't write any FRIDAY TALKS, but I'll do that next week for sure this time.

Last week I did something that I never think that I'll do for sure, being a sound man T.T yeah I never did that ever, my dad did that before for my church but I never think that I'll be there someday. But, I did that, and after I finished that I proud of myself.

I didn't want to show off, so I'll write now about what I think and I learnt from the past week :)

I am really not so outgoing people that can talks to everyone and say to everyone that I never know before, all of the cast that I know were too busy to be disturb and I didn't know anyone there, yeah that feels like I didn't do anything but I need to came and I didn't know what I need to do :') I really want to went back but I couldn't do that :') the times fly and I am really stress T.T yeah I was that stress because of something that also I didn't know and not my fault but I need to survived :")

But, I really happy when my friends came and notice me was there :") I am really no one there, I just sat in the back and watch the show and sometime I think that I want to go home because of that mic, I really hate when something didn't work as I want and I thought that will be my fault because of that T.T 

The first day was done and I wasn't going home and stayed with some of the crew and the cast, and I realize that they didn't tell me that was me the one who did wrong :") I was really scared back then T.T I really want to cried out damn loud T.T The whole night I couldn't sleep and thinking what will happen tomorrow :") That was better and getting better but still below my expectation :") But, when the shows done everyone are really really really kind and I felt that I need to be back as a crew again (maybe) because I can't sing and dance like they did :p

From that stories I want to tell you that God gives you something and sometime you didn't realize that before you do that. Now, I know that I heard a lot of songs and I can heard they voice without knowing them before :') and I think I must be proud of that and became someone who did something that really crazy T.T I felt that I am nothing before but I think I need to be proud of myself so you need to thankful and proud being YOU !! maybe you are not awesome (same like me) but you might be have something that someone didn't have. :D

If I remember all of that I felt dizzy and I want to forget everything but I learnt that we need to face out problem and we need to do our best to solve that, and when you did your best that might be not perfect but I think you will be proud with what you did before :')