This is the old post that I always keep on my draft. I will give the original post and maybe give some additional sentences to this post.
This time, I would like to share about how I overcome my fear, the most unpleasant things on my life is FAILURE. I really hate losing and if someone underestimate me. That kind of people really irritated me that much. But, I think that I really hit the bottom this time, during my 23 years of my life these day is the most unplanned event on my life, I always got everything that I want, and now I couldn't have something that around my expectation. I became really down because of that things, I really envy with someone who got their dream jobs. I really don't know why I couldn't make that, what I really need to gain. Despite of I am being down with everything that I got, I stayed on that plan until now. At least I tried my best to stayed to commit with my words before. I really afraid that I will stayed like that and I don't have a really great FUTURE that I dream of before. But, God let me felt that to overcome myself to be more consider about the little things. I never grateful about a simple things before but God makes me felt like everything must be count on my life. I overcome that with my will to became someone who want to improve myself more. When I really full of myself I never find and acknowledge someone strength (sometime). I was drive my path with my own will power without think about the other, but on now I know that we couldn't live by ourselves.
I really envy with the other who can reached more than me and they got something that I really want. I tried to compare myself with them and I think that I was better. Instead comparing myself to the other I tried to think that the other is better then me and I need to reach their standard to become someone better then what am I now. I need to acknowledge that everyone has their own speciality that make themselves shine more than the other.
To overcome that FEAR you need to have a heart to accept everything that would be happen in your life, sometimes that might be hard and you need to decide what you need to do next, you never know about the result but keep going. That what I learnt from what I felt know. Try to knowing yourself more than before and give your private time to yourself to accept who you really are.
You will felt better than before with that attitude, you'll be more grateful with everything that you have now and you'll think more positive than before.
Sometime everything not going well with your expectation, but keep going, the other doors will be open soon after you develop yourself more, when you just stayed as you are now you'll stuck on the GROUND forever
That's what I wrote as 23 years old of me when struggling to have my job and it was really tiring and stressful.
But, I have a good job after that. I Left that job and I am here today as the last year master student of Biomedical Engineering.
After I looked back and see this post too I realized that this phase will always go to the circles. So, the change of your way of thinking and your heart might be the simplest things you can do now. Hahaha.
Living to the fullest, that what I said to my younger self but in everything we decide in our lives you always need to sacrifice the other things.
Decide your own and you can understand more about yourself and change a bit that make you feel bad about yourself
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